minhpho

“Tell me I'm clever, Tell me I'm kind, Tell me I'm talented, Tell me I'm cute, Tell me I'm sensitive, Graceful and wise, Tell me I'm perfect-- But tell me the truth.” -Shel Silverstein

I've come to realize two things. The first of which is that I'm quite a a judgemental person. Never to the person's face, but on the inside I'm forming my opinion of the person. I'll give you an example. One of my friends recently was telling me about how she went out partying the night before and then the rest of that night was spent puking. The next day she complained how crazy hungover she was. Now she's a good friend of mine and I think she's a good person overall. However, I honestly didn't have much sympathy for her in that case. No one made her start drinking. No one made her drink that much. She chose to do all that herself so in that moment I just began to think to myself wow. That was just bad. Now I still think she's a good person who now likes to party a bit too much, but this moment will always come up and make me rethink it all. I know I'm not a perfect person either and I have my faults, but I still judge people. I think we inherently do this to make ourselves feel better about ourselves. We judge others so that we either don't have to deal with our own faults or because we think we're better than others or maybe even that we're perfect. Who knows... The second thing being I still don't know if I'm happy.